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[belovedpiglet]

So, what is there to say? No matter how much I intend to talk to M, it never works out once he's here. There is always so much people around and also I just don't know what to say to "break the ice", to start the conversation. I just wish that I could forget the whole thing ... forget that he ever gave me butterflies (and still do as soon as he smiles) ... but that's just not who I am. I am such a stupid girl. Why did I have to give my heart away? Why oh why?

(And some say there has been snow in the air today. Damn! I want spring, not more winter! And sister and I will be lazy and skip training today. Bad bad! But she was feeling a cold coming on, and my throat is a bit sore as well ...)