"... Wishing you were here Leaning on my shoulder A heavy rain is closing in Staring at the sky Waiting for salvation Another day will soon begin ..."

Yawn! What a busy day this has been. The morning was really messy. Katta was held up by something around breakfast time so I was kind of doing both our jobs for a while and a lot of things were happening all at once. Including M calling, which didn't exactly help me when my mind was already busy. It's very interesting how nice and chatty (work-related, of course!) he always is when he calls on the phone, while he hardly even said hi this morning. He sort of got on my nerves, cause he always seems so eager to point out how good he is, how careful about work etc. Yes, it is a good quality, and I like that about him, but there is no need to brag about it, right? Well, in a way I suppose that it is a positive sign that he does get on my nerves. Probably means that there is a chance I can get over him, right? But damn, he's so cute. Still, he effects me less than he used to, which is good. But I won't say too much, as I've thought like that before, and as late as last Friday again I almost felt knocked-down by his cuteness … These things are never easy! I just hope that it won't end in that awful empty feeling that sometimes catches me … I am so sick of feeling blue!

"... When the sun dries the rain And glitters through the trees I'll gaze at you With the winds you are gone my love ..."

Argh! We have a meeting this afternoon. So boring! Especially since I would be off at three if we didn't and now I have to wait until the meeting begins at four, and will end at six, if we're lucky. Sure, I do get paid for this hour of waiting also, but it still sucks. I want to go home. The weather is lovely and I would much rather sit on the balcony or something. We went outside during the lunch break and it was really lovely. Even the wind was a bit warm. Cosy. Seems like spring is finally here for real. All that's missing is a bit of "spring feelings", and someone to share them with, of course.

"... Watching how the shades Linger in the morning I can't escape the ghost of you I can hear your voice Calling in the distance I know you're feeling lonely too ..."

Speaking of which, the cute sale's guy (who is called Johan, by the way) was here yesterday, like I wrote last time. Indeed he is cute. If nothing else he is so charming that you have to adore him. I just try to remember that it is part of his work to be charming, and not be too effected. That can be hard sometimes, though. I ended up giving him a tour of our building, as he wanted to have the new price list and we keep them upstairs + they were hidden away in a store room. Well, I didn't mind at all *big smile* since it meant that he hung around for a while; and he didn't seem to mind much either. I was all giggly afterwards, so he surely effected me, no matter my good intentions not to let him, and I can hardly remember what we spoke about. (But isn't it good that someone else can make me feel that way, not just M? Cause for so long now, no one seemed to have effect on me but him.) Let's hope that he shows up again some time soon. I would like that. Woah. Cute guys can be so addictive, right? *blink* [And in my wildest dreams I would, of course, dare to ask him out and he would accept and it would all be so good. Haha! And everyone who knows me knows that I would never dare that at all, and if I did it would still end bad … It's not like I ever say all the things I mean to say to M, right?]

"... But the trees will fall someday So I must let you fade away When the sun dries the rain ... "
(lyrics by Evan)

Listening to: "Do what you're told" by Sebastian
Currently reading: "Siddhartha" by Hermann Hesse


Dott is champion!

Tuesday, 2 May 2006 17:17

Graeme Dott won the World Championship of snooker
Well done, Dott! You deserved it! 

And no, I did not stay up all night to watch it. Apparently the game ended at 2:40 am ... wether or not that was UK time or CET, I don't know, but I am glad that I did not try to stay awake for the whole game. (I went to bed at around 23:00)

Today was a totally okay day at work. M seemed to be in a really bad mood this morning, but luckily that did not effect me. Nor anyone else, I think, cause most people seemed to be in a good mood today. (Except perhaps that grumpy customer that hung up in my ear, but let's not care about her, she obviosly had a bad day) Actually M being in a bad mood is sort of good (even though I do not wish him anything bad - on the contrary!), cause then he is not as cute as he usually is - ergo, my heart is better off!

Speaking of which, the cute sale's guy will probably come by tomorrow to pick up some things, so maybe I'll meet him. Would be interesting to see if he's as cute as I remember from December ...

This said, I am hungry and Sofus will soon have the dinner ready so this will just be a very short  entry.

... the teddy version of Dott ...


Humphrey's corner

Saturday, 29 April 2006 21:03
 I just had a cup of strawberry tea and some wafers and now I am all warm. I always get very warm when I drink tea. Probably a good thing, as I was getting cold from sitting by the computer. I don't know why, but I always seem to get cold when I sit here ... especially my hands. I doubt that it is very good for my hands to get cold like that. Considering that they already suffer from the mere fact that I am by the computer, I mean ... Hopefully they will be better off next week when I am not by the phone/computer taking orders from customers all day ... The next two weeks will be better for my hands and worse for my heart then *sigh*

M looked so cute yesterday that I was almost knocked out. I can't explain what made him look cuter than on other days, but it must have been something. It's not like we spoke or anything, maybe we said hi, I don't remember. Lillen did most of the talking, as always! And I, of course, spoke mostly to Katta and Ida (except for Lillen then). It's always the most difficult to speak to the one person with whom you want to talk most of all, right? At least if you're not sure if he wants to talk to you ... Afterwards I so wished that I had blown him a kiss as I did so to Lillen (who was being annoying in the way only he can be and still be loved), but of course I did not. I'm never as courageous when he's actually around as I am when I think of what I want to do or should have done *sigh* Later in the day as I was talking to Lillen on the phone he was saying that he had come in to hug me the minute he saw me in the morning, and I was like "yes, it's a good thing that someone reacts that way when they see me" ... and he said something about that and then added that maybe I should've asked M for a hug. It felt very weird to talk about these things with him and pretend that it was pretty much as any topic to me ... I said I thought that he would probably have died or something if I did (to which he agreed). And I did not tell him how much I would actually have liked to do that *sigh* Like I said, it felt very strange to talk about M and hugs and whatever (or single guys risking to die early according to some article that L had read in the paper, which he had talked about with M he said ...)and pretend that it did not really matter. I care way too much about this guy, I know ... but where do I go from here? Why can't I just accept the fact that he does not want me and move on from there? Do I really need to hear him say it? (Damn yes! That would help so much. It would hurt, but it would help in the long run, I am sure!)

And why do I keep spilling all of these feelings out in blogs that could be read by just anyone? I thought I had enough of that back when A (and others) read every single word I wrote at lunarstorm ... but well, maybe I do have some secret hope that somehow he would?! Which is just crazy, cause I doubt he surfs the same sites that I do ... or that he would find me. Perhaps if he was looking for me, but that is hardly unlikely, right? Damn! Don't we all just have a certain need to be read? I miss having my lunardiary read by more people than the usual two really ... I would not mind having it read by strangers, it's the ones I know but don't share everything with (read: certain workmates)that bother me finally ... *sad smile*

This said, I would probably have wasted all of yesterday contemplating M and his cuteness if I hadn't been interrupted (just as I was starting to write an entry in my lunarstorm diary about how cute M was actually *smile*)in my thoughts by that cute sale's guy who was in a rather flirty mood and kept me chatting on the phone for at least twenty minutes. I know that it doesn't mean anything, but it felt good being flattered just the same. Especially since I know that he is cute. I remember him dropping by work to pick up some stuff at Lucia. He was kind of flirty then too (telling me I looked lovely with my white clothes and glitter in my hair), actually, and really cute! Anyway, he really cheered me up and I was in a really good mood for the rest of the day (and technically we have a date next Valborg holiday, as he told me he would take me to his hometown, which supposedly was the place to be to celebrate Valborg)... I think Lillen was very surprised when he called me and I answered "It's actually quite okay" to the question how things were. That's probably the most positive answer he's had from me since I don't know when!! It felt good to be in a good mood, haha!

Nina visited for a while yesterday and brought me a really cute belated birthday gift. This really cute Humphrey's corner stationary set:

I love it! Humphrey and his friends are so cute, and I've only seen them in cross-stitch charts before. I included the cute confetti (with bunnies!) that I got from Melyssa in one of the photos as well! *loving Sofus' digicam*

Anyway, I should try to get away from the computer. Which probably means going back to watching snooker (go Dott!) and continuing the endless work on my cross-stitching ... What an exciting life! Well, tomorrow at least I'm meeting with Camilla, which will be nice. Haven't met her IRL for over a year ... time passes too quickly! (But let's not get started on that topic tonight or this blog entry will really be endless!)

Listening to: "Back to Bedlam" by James Blunt
Currently reading: "Scaredy cat" by Mark Billingham


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